Footsteps

Hello,

Would you save me in a dream?

Or let me drown where I sing?

No hoping could be deeper still

The wishing's gone, so's the will

To row beyond, a lovers hill

I left a page as my will

These broken thoughts, pictures still.

Holding on, to what was never real.

I.

Have.

Memories.

Playing in the dark,

Laying in the shadows

Opened up like broken hearts

The memory left behind

Singed and torn apart

Replays everyday

From last to first 'til start.

The one who walked away

Was-not-in-one-instance

All of them are the same

You're good at a distance.

Your shoes are reminiscent

The same imprint on my soul

The same you've walked indenting

Everyone that you've ever known.

Could you find peace of mind

Hollowed in your hole?

Hiding in the bathroom, sabotaging your soul.

And I refrain, because I can't contain

From your tepid little game 

Of all the things you say.

I won't lower to your level

Or we'd both be swimming again,

Drowning in the water, with sharks above our heads.

The thunder's might comes,

A lighting rod with a tongue

It couldn't weather a fucking weasel

From a storm of a hole, you've dug.

Fear: is your blessing.

Shielding need from want.

This battle of my mind..

Yes, you've fucking won.

You win, you win, you win!

Since your wish is to be correct,

Your independence is so brazen

With your narcissistic bullshit.

How're you thirsty for your freedom,

When you're hiding in your home?

I guess hurting is your thing

Since it's everything that you've ever known.

So how could I always have a place

Somewhere in your heart?

Because that fuckin' thing is shriveled up

So I guess you too think I'm small.

We're not fucking detectives,

We don't problem-solve.

If we investigate the crimes of the heart

Your ass would be behind those bars...

See what the fuck you do to me?

I guess I like to swim.

I'd rather drown in what I know

Than to paddle with you like this.

I write from an angry heart

Directed to the bottom dweller,

The deeper in I float..

I get caught up in your fucking lantern.

There are other fish, 

Some are bigger, and some are better.

I'd rather chill with the sharks

Than go boating with a living terror!

Do I really mean this, or is it just defense?

To keep from getting hurt in the shallows

Cause I'm quicker in the deep end?

Settle down children,

The fucking adult is speaking.

Bring your fucking floaties,

I'm not saving anyone who's sinking.

For every snake in the grass

There's a gator creeping.

And those urchins underwater

Keep piercing till you feel it.

Pull out the sting

Pull out the barb

She poisoned the soul

She poisoned the heart

From first to last

She poisons them all.

She makes a hole 

Where she leaves a mark.