Narcissisa Sublimina

For eighteen years I was lost in my tears,

I waited with every breath 

writhing at the depths of my death

Hoping near and sudden, it would come.

Years came and went.

Like you too, a whisper,

A figment of my dream

A figment of my imagination.

You condemned me to my emotions,

And like you too, I lost them, with one thought: "What if?"

And if that if was a what, and that what, was an if...

I would replace the day that I ever sought eyes upon you.

Replace the memory of our parting.

Forget the moment of our passing.

Erase yesterday from the pain, of loving you.

Your silence was always strong.

From the void of your heart

Your neurosis tares at the soul.

You are Narcissisa Sublimina.

Your power to turn the blame unto others

The passion, the roar, The heat of your voice,

Belittled guilt passed out as morning rations.

Devoured with talents of suggestion.

The little things you say,

Breaking the lives of others you touch.

You are human, you are a statistic,

I am beguiled, by your bullshit...

See you again in thirteen springs

When your words sting like bees,

And you're serrated and torn,

Broken and Bended,

From the monster you made 

That you never mended.

How I long to lay a flower, 

Pleasantly upon your cadaver.

Smile with feint while well restrained

Throwing dirt upon your descension

To gaze at your grave: I will witness.