Coat Check

I thought of her once-beautiful 

Beyond scars that she carved into herself. 

Mind on flesh — a prison of self 

Cutting the surface of existence. 

Felled, into grey eyes 

I used to tell her, "I love you." 

We used to be best friends. 

Lost words, not said 

Lost the things that we could relate to 

Speaking in circles, 

And it didn't help that: 

She bored me. 

When "I love you" disappeared: 

She bored me. 

When taking on more work: 

She bored me. 

When I became lesser.. 

She bored me. 

When she lost that spark in her eye: 

She bored me. 

When living without her. . . 

It bored me. 

Boring. Boring. Boring. 

Go deeper. 

I never wanted your surface 

When I was going after your heart. 

Go deeper. 

Checking on the marks 

To · see · how · deep 

The blade goes in again 

Go deeper. 

New cuts?! Another Seven! 

Go deeper. 

You Fucking said you stopped!! 

Go deeper. 

Carving away your thoughts. 

Go deeper. 

On canvas 

Go deeper. 

You won't even speak! 

Go deeper. 

We're stuck. 

Go deeper! 

We know how this 

Wicked-road leads one way. 

It goes, Deeper... 

"Coat, please..."